Closer Monitoring

When I prick my finger every morning, the results lately have been better than ever, Usually, down in the 5s and 6s. That’s around 100 mg/dl, not massively higher than a normal value.

However, I had a blood test last week, and the HBA1C was a bit higher than I expected. Only around 70 (mmol/mol) as opposed to my calculated 60. I have two theories on this. Either my method for predicting the value is wrong (not beyond the realms…), or my sugar is going high later in the day, but is settling down again by morning.

On this second,it is entirely possible. I generally only measure myself once per day. I know from the times I have tested myself through the day, that my highest sugar tends to be pre-supper.

I take two doses of insulin per day. Until now, I’ve kept each dose the same. For one thing, it’s just easier that way. And because my blood sugar each morning has been good, I’ve just carried on with this regime. But perhaps my blood sugar during the day is varying more than I think?

I backed this up tonight, when for a change, I also measured my sugar before supper. High.

I think that the total dose must be about right, otherwise I’d notice by the measurements I’m taking already. But I think I need to increase my morning dose by a bit, and reduce the evening dose. Plus, I suppose, I need to measure myself every evening to make sure I find the right balance,

Our Colonial History

I read something by the Irish Post yesterday. Some guy went on to Twitter, along the lines “what has the UK ever done to Ireland, that they feel this way about us?” And, of course, there followed this torrent of abuse. Not at all surprising, the history is widely known in places like Ireland, although British people themselves are largely ignorant. So this guy asked for what he got.

The Irish Post reported it. A British woman herself said that the Irish were “living in the past”, and should let bygones be bygones. There’s a point in that, I suppose. Other people readily reminded this woman that something like the Great Famine was deliberate genocide on the part of the British, but whilst I can have an awareness of the past, I don’t really want it to dictate the future. And, of course, I can widen the argument. Famous examples include the UK’s invention of concentration camps in the Boer War, or of something like the Amritsar massacre. It is one of those subjects where the deeper you dig, the more you uncover. Morants Bay, in Jamaica, for example. Something I learned about during a Black History Month a couple of years ago, was never taught from history books. The only possible conclusion is that the British past is very murky indeed.

That’s really where I feel I’m walking a tightrope. On the one hand, I know that bad things have happened. On the other hand, I, personally, was not responsible for any of them. I can feel that such things were wrong, but I can’t really feel guilt, just basically because these events were nothing to do with me.

I can quite easily take patriotism out of this. One nation controlling another nation is simply wrong, doesn’t matter whether one of them is the UK or not.

But for all I don’t/can’t feel any guilt, I am acutely aware that I have benefitted by events of the past. It doesn’t feel like it but I grew up in Liverpool, surrounded by magnificent buildings from centuries gone by. On the surface, we’re told that the wealth that built these buildings was Liverpool’s seafaring traders, although a fair amount was more bluntly due to slavery. Ill-gotten gains. Things like schools and hospitals, many of which sprang up because of individual benefactors, before the state took over. And don’t let’s forget that the USA was once a colony.

It is indeed a tightrope act. I’m against it, but I’ve benefitted from it. I don’t pretend to have an answer. What do you think?